Introvert reflections.

Addressing whether I'm an introvert or not is somewhat complex.

I identify as an introvert, but my level of openness can vary depending on the circumstances.

Yet, deep down, I proudly embrace my introverted nature.

Is being an introvert a blessing or a curse? Frankly, it's both.

According to the definition from Google, an introvert is "a person that tends to turn inward mentally, avoiding large groups and feeling more energized by time alone."

And yes, that fits me perfectly.

To simplify, my days of solitude are sacred to me, and I appreciate your understanding and refrain from judgment.

Now, let's discuss the advantages of being an introvert:

1. Avoiding Drama: Stepping away from unnecessary conflicts and meaningless conversations brings a sense of peace.

2. Self-Focus: Prioritizing mental, spiritual, and physical growth by relying on oneself for development.

3. Personal Hobbies: Engaging in solitary activities like reading, writing, or drawing to recharge.

4. Observational Skills: Being adept at reading body language and understanding subtle social cues.

5. Close-Knit Relationships: Valuing quality over quantity when it comes to friendships.

6. Appreciation for Social Outings: Every social event is cherished and looked forward to.

7. Personality Development: Strengthening one's character traits through introspection and self-awareness.
   

Surprisingly, despite the assumption that solitude drains me, it actually empowers me to pursue my interests. Interactions with others often lead to negative emotions like deceit, reinforcing my preference for solitude.

I do maintain a select group of friends with whom I interact and enjoy mutual company. I'm not a hermit, but I avoid large gatherings and superficial conversations merely for the sake of conforming.

Dinners parties filled with shallow chatter and pretense aren't my scene. I'd rather observe the dynamics between people than engage in meaningless dialogue.

On the other hand, there are downsides to being an introvert:

1. Exclusion from Plans: Being left out of social plans by acquaintances, which I often find relieving.

2. Awkward Social Events: Feeling out of place at obligatory gatherings, where I resort to sipping cocktails and waiting for time to pass.

3. Misunderstanding: Being labeled as an introvert despite efforts to explain otherwise.

4. Missed Opportunities: Potentially missing out on job opportunities requiring extensive social interaction.

5. Feeling Misunderstood: Experiencing a constant sense of being misunderstood due to my introverted nature.
   

In all honesty, extremes in any trait aren't beneficial. Yes, I'm an introvert, and yes, I prioritize my own company. That's a logical choice, although it might seem awkward to some.

In today's increasingly competitive and hypocritical world, I find solace in my circle of friends, even if it has shrunk over time.

I am content to go out when I wish, meeting new people in genuine settings, without needing to justify or prove my extroverted side.

If you enjoy my company, you're welcome to join me. If not, it's a relief for both of us.